Two Parts to Play by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
Two Parts to Play
I don't let her out much anymore.
I keep her safe behind closed doors.
The girl that is vulnerable,
The girl who weeps.
The girl who has nightmares
that rip through her sleep.
The girl who's been battered,
She's been beaten and bruised,
with scars, skin and soul,
from how she's been used,
and manipulated,
it's quite easy to do
when her heart's on her sleeve
She gave the rains to a few
who took advantage of leverage,
and her desire to please,
Love, all she wanted,
Now her skin has the creases
where she has been folded
and smooshed into shapes
that made others happy,
until they went away.
As she's unfolding,
you can hear her b
Hey,
how are you,
Yeah I'm good,
just the same.
Weather's nice,
friends are cool,
job is stable,
rent is paid.
Hows the fam?
Kids are good?
In good health?
Glad to hear.
Yes mine too,
all is well,
another solid,
blessed year.
-no,
I haven't..
I didn't know.
Good for him,
yeah, that's great.
knew he would,
not surprised
he went out on that limb.
Oh he has?
wow, that's great.
That sounds nice,
bet he's happy.
No, he didn't.
No, I haven't.
We don't speak.
Let's not get sappy.
I am aware-
Hey, how's your dog?
How's your garden?
What books have you read-?
Mhm, that's wonderful,
knew he could do it.
Just had to get
out of
There are six stoplights
Between your place and mine.
15 minutes with traffic,
Two right turns and a straight line.
There are 6 things
standing between you and I
6 stops, one highway,
and a promise not to lie when I say I am fine.
There are 6 people
who've broken my heart.
6 times a loved one,
tore me apart,
And made your girlfriend
6 times more complicated.
Private, protective,
6 times replicated
with over corrections
6 locks and keys,
6 times the focus,
it takes just to breathe.
6 times as long
to unlock my story.
6 scenes in my book,
that are a bit too gory
to discuss with stone faces
or composure at all.
6 stories to t
The Clock is Ticking by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
The Clock is Ticking
My dearest little ones,
look at me,
pay attention,
Yes you'll see,
Mommy will make it all better.
Eyes up hear,
Listen up,
Wipe your tears,
Chin up,
It's all going to be okay.
My sweet babies,
I'll try harder,
I'll be nicer,
I'll be smarter,
I'll be the perfect woman.
Children I promise,
I'm working quickly,
I haven't picked one
Who also picked me,
But don't give up on me.
I'm so sorry,
I haven't found him,
I can't get to you,
in this mess I'm in,
I'll go crazy before I give up.
I’m losing you all,
One month at a time,
I just can’t find the one
I’m supposed to call mine
Because then you would be the
The same story, just different by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
The same story, just different
I was the last one to know.
Everyone saw it before me...
No one said a word,
They never conveyed what they'd heard,
They just let it play out on its own.
The facts were all already there,
Undeniable, Steadfast, concrete.
There was no fighting,
Just match ready for lighting,
Ready to set my world ablaze.
One night it all changed before me,
I went home with a new reality,
You looked in my eyes,
And revealed all your lives,
Saying you were done pretending to love me.
Said we should try being friends,
Try stepping away for a while,
Be farther apart,
Take back our hearts,
Because none if your words had been true.
Years have crawl
I have rules.
I am home before midnight-
before ten on week nights-
I am always the DD,
I only finish the fights.
I don't change my mind,
I don't kiss before the third date,
I don't get involved,
I don't believe in "fate"
or fairytale endings,
And I'm not saying he changed that,
The rules are all there, still,
You just skipped right passed
Those rules without knowing
What he was doing to me
demolishing structure,
Breaking my consistency.
I was home after bedtime,
On a weeknight no less,
But I lost track while with him,
I lost track of my stress,
We were together
for about the millionth time,
When My lips found his lips,
And h
The split second exchanges,
With rosey cheeks and bashful glances.
The lingering hugs before leaving,
The kinds that move like music-less dances
The tiny reassurances,
fingertip brushes, and smiles from afar,
The ease with which I breathe
when I am there where you are.
Refusing to let me light my own smoke,
Saying a lady should never have to,
Opening doors and remembering details,
Noticing when i don't feel like smiling but I do.
No it wasn't that you changed so much,
It wasn't how long we spent as friends,
It was the consistency of all these
little things that won me over in the end,
Do you know how hard it is,
To get through a day without one?
A WHOLE day, it's impossible.
once a day and then some.
I'll be typing along at work,
And I hear a distant chortle
that sounds vaguely like yours once did
and I'm thrown into a portal.
Back I go to high school,
or to the darkest college nights,
to laughing until I couldn't breathe,
and losing my breath every time we'd fight.
Do you know how hard it is
To wake up from my life like that?
Dreams of you are memories,
My reality might never come back.
Being awake is the dream these days,
Nothing feels real anymore,
Everything is different now,
I barely remember how it was b
I don't need you.
I don't need your lies,
I can see the truth just fine
Without you.
I don't need you,
To tell me I'm strong.
I am strong,
And I was before you.
I don't need you,
to talk me down at night,
I've learned how to do it,
Without you.
I don't need you,
To make me laugh,
I laugh every day,
but it's still without you...
I don't need you,
to love me.
I'm learning how to love myself...
But you did it better.
I don't need you,
to come back.
I'm trying to hate you,
to cope with living without you.
I don't need you,
To be my montra when i can't move...
I have a new one:
I don't need you.
You Were, You are, You're not. by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
You Were, You are, You're not.
You were my glass of wine after work.
You were my weekend out of town.
You were mornings with fresh coffee,
And a good book as the sun goes down.
You were the stormy nights I dreaded,
And the morning after glow.
You were the iron against my skin,
You were the gleam that always showed.
Now you're the check engine light in traffic,
You are a bruise that's faded yellow.
You are the bottom of the coffee pot,
You are the unanswered "hello"
You are re the hardened corner of my heart,
That bruises the rest when it beats.
You are Monday morning with a cold.
You are nosebleed seats.
You're the tag sticking out of my shirt,
that gets t
Two Parts to Play by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
Two Parts to Play
I don't let her out much anymore.
I keep her safe behind closed doors.
The girl that is vulnerable,
The girl who weeps.
The girl who has nightmares
that rip through her sleep.
The girl who's been battered,
She's been beaten and bruised,
with scars, skin and soul,
from how she's been used,
and manipulated,
it's quite easy to do
when her heart's on her sleeve
She gave the rains to a few
who took advantage of leverage,
and her desire to please,
Love, all she wanted,
Now her skin has the creases
where she has been folded
and smooshed into shapes
that made others happy,
until they went away.
As she's unfolding,
you can hear her b
Hey,
how are you,
Yeah I'm good,
just the same.
Weather's nice,
friends are cool,
job is stable,
rent is paid.
Hows the fam?
Kids are good?
In good health?
Glad to hear.
Yes mine too,
all is well,
another solid,
blessed year.
-no,
I haven't..
I didn't know.
Good for him,
yeah, that's great.
knew he would,
not surprised
he went out on that limb.
Oh he has?
wow, that's great.
That sounds nice,
bet he's happy.
No, he didn't.
No, I haven't.
We don't speak.
Let's not get sappy.
I am aware-
Hey, how's your dog?
How's your garden?
What books have you read-?
Mhm, that's wonderful,
knew he could do it.
Just had to get
out of
There are six stoplights
Between your place and mine.
15 minutes with traffic,
Two right turns and a straight line.
There are 6 things
standing between you and I
6 stops, one highway,
and a promise not to lie when I say I am fine.
There are 6 people
who've broken my heart.
6 times a loved one,
tore me apart,
And made your girlfriend
6 times more complicated.
Private, protective,
6 times replicated
with over corrections
6 locks and keys,
6 times the focus,
it takes just to breathe.
6 times as long
to unlock my story.
6 scenes in my book,
that are a bit too gory
to discuss with stone faces
or composure at all.
6 stories to t
The Clock is Ticking by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
The Clock is Ticking
My dearest little ones,
look at me,
pay attention,
Yes you'll see,
Mommy will make it all better.
Eyes up hear,
Listen up,
Wipe your tears,
Chin up,
It's all going to be okay.
My sweet babies,
I'll try harder,
I'll be nicer,
I'll be smarter,
I'll be the perfect woman.
Children I promise,
I'm working quickly,
I haven't picked one
Who also picked me,
But don't give up on me.
I'm so sorry,
I haven't found him,
I can't get to you,
in this mess I'm in,
I'll go crazy before I give up.
I’m losing you all,
One month at a time,
I just can’t find the one
I’m supposed to call mine
Because then you would be the
The same story, just different by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
The same story, just different
I was the last one to know.
Everyone saw it before me...
No one said a word,
They never conveyed what they'd heard,
They just let it play out on its own.
The facts were all already there,
Undeniable, Steadfast, concrete.
There was no fighting,
Just match ready for lighting,
Ready to set my world ablaze.
One night it all changed before me,
I went home with a new reality,
You looked in my eyes,
And revealed all your lives,
Saying you were done pretending to love me.
Said we should try being friends,
Try stepping away for a while,
Be farther apart,
Take back our hearts,
Because none if your words had been true.
Years have crawl
I have rules.
I am home before midnight-
before ten on week nights-
I am always the DD,
I only finish the fights.
I don't change my mind,
I don't kiss before the third date,
I don't get involved,
I don't believe in "fate"
or fairytale endings,
And I'm not saying he changed that,
The rules are all there, still,
You just skipped right passed
Those rules without knowing
What he was doing to me
demolishing structure,
Breaking my consistency.
I was home after bedtime,
On a weeknight no less,
But I lost track while with him,
I lost track of my stress,
We were together
for about the millionth time,
When My lips found his lips,
And h
The split second exchanges,
With rosey cheeks and bashful glances.
The lingering hugs before leaving,
The kinds that move like music-less dances
The tiny reassurances,
fingertip brushes, and smiles from afar,
The ease with which I breathe
when I am there where you are.
Refusing to let me light my own smoke,
Saying a lady should never have to,
Opening doors and remembering details,
Noticing when i don't feel like smiling but I do.
No it wasn't that you changed so much,
It wasn't how long we spent as friends,
It was the consistency of all these
little things that won me over in the end,
Do you know how hard it is,
To get through a day without one?
A WHOLE day, it's impossible.
once a day and then some.
I'll be typing along at work,
And I hear a distant chortle
that sounds vaguely like yours once did
and I'm thrown into a portal.
Back I go to high school,
or to the darkest college nights,
to laughing until I couldn't breathe,
and losing my breath every time we'd fight.
Do you know how hard it is
To wake up from my life like that?
Dreams of you are memories,
My reality might never come back.
Being awake is the dream these days,
Nothing feels real anymore,
Everything is different now,
I barely remember how it was b
I don't need you.
I don't need your lies,
I can see the truth just fine
Without you.
I don't need you,
To tell me I'm strong.
I am strong,
And I was before you.
I don't need you,
to talk me down at night,
I've learned how to do it,
Without you.
I don't need you,
To make me laugh,
I laugh every day,
but it's still without you...
I don't need you,
to love me.
I'm learning how to love myself...
But you did it better.
I don't need you,
to come back.
I'm trying to hate you,
to cope with living without you.
I don't need you,
To be my montra when i can't move...
I have a new one:
I don't need you.
You Were, You are, You're not. by VivereRidereLAmore, literature
Literature
You Were, You are, You're not.
You were my glass of wine after work.
You were my weekend out of town.
You were mornings with fresh coffee,
And a good book as the sun goes down.
You were the stormy nights I dreaded,
And the morning after glow.
You were the iron against my skin,
You were the gleam that always showed.
Now you're the check engine light in traffic,
You are a bruise that's faded yellow.
You are the bottom of the coffee pot,
You are the unanswered "hello"
You are re the hardened corner of my heart,
That bruises the rest when it beats.
You are Monday morning with a cold.
You are nosebleed seats.
You're the tag sticking out of my shirt,
that gets t
I'm not broken,
Just a little bent.
All those words you've spoken,
Just left me a little dent.
My heart isn't shattered,
It just has a crack.
Sore, bruised, and battered,
But my tears I hold back.
Please don't worry about me.
I'm fine, I swear.
I just want you to see,
That I'm still able to be repaired.
Even though I'm hurt, damaged, and weakened,
Even though I've felt so much pain.
It doesn't mean I'm truly beaten,
It just means that I'll need a little help again.
The Girl Who Was Afraid To Be by UntamedUnwanted, literature
Literature
The Girl Who Was Afraid To Be
She speaks to me fondly
of passions and talents,
of guitars and stars,
with such breathless intensity
then stops short and
apologises
for speaking at all.
All because somewhere in her life,
someone she loved broke her heart
by ignoring
her beautiful words
and telling her to
shut up,
keep it down,
nobody cares.
People aren’t born sad.
We make them that way.
A paradise found
A golden white sandy beach
A child's innocent frolic
A small footprint
A thinly veiled ambush under sand
A broken glass minefield of ignorance
A bloodied footprint
A child's new-found fear
A red stained sandy beach
A paradise abused
The world fell down on my head,
Knocking me to the floor,
As it caved in and my heart exploded,
I heard misery's knock at my door.
The lights flickered and fell
So that the darkness was inside and out,
It crawled through my pupils and my nose,
Closed my throat so I cannot shout.
The floor gave out and I fell so far,
My knees tucked in to my face,
As I dropped, my stomach came out of my mouth,
And repositioned itself in the wrong place.
The screams errupted and tried to break,
All the glass and windows in my room,
But I'd fallen so far that the screams stayed in,
And I remained, all alone in the gloom...
The pain was s
So I've resurfaced, again.
And in doing so, I have started rereading my poetry to see how much I've grown. At first, I went from current and backward through 2013. They were hard to read, but it was also kind of cool to see how much I've changed, particularly in the last 4 years. I've changed so much over the years, but those last four... they really defined who I was going to be. Or at least my reactions to things did. Then I decided to start from the first poem I posted. Now, Keep in mind that my first poem on this account was actually a much later posting from an account I used to have. I started that one when I was 14 o4r 15 I believe. I
I've been going through my old work. Some of it was attached to an old account of mine that was deleted. I'm still working on recovering the files from that one, but a few of them managed to be salvaged before my old computer died. So the pieces I'm putting up tonight are a few of my favorites from years ago.
-Vivere
So I'm moving again. I've gone through the phases of anger, and sadness, and so on... It's gotten to the stage where I am just tired. If I have to move, I just want to get it over with. Lets go, Lets start over, and skip the waiting. I don't have anyone that I'll be leaving. All of my friends are in school, or about to be. And the ones that aren't, I could care less... Everyone has already left me. So here I go, lets start again, and go from scratch. But at this point in my life, this move stops a lot of things, and starts many more. At this point, I have no idea how long I will be there. Or where I will be next. The people I love are everywh